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Believe

I can’t think of a better summary of what 2022 has taught me, so far… Whoever this message resonates with, please know I’m rooting for you. “When someone says, ” I can’t change” some part of them wants to change, but the payoffs for his present behavior, are greater than the payoffs for changed behavior,…
Paying Homage to the Dead

12 years ago I was in a dark place after an extended bout of unemployed during the Great Recession. To keep myself from going crazy, I tapped into my creativity and wrote some short stories that I put to music. The excerpt included w/ this post is from “The Legend of Ladybug Lounge”, a story…
Dance, Sir

Yesterday I returned from an amazing cruise on Atlantis. Seeing as it was a Pride cruise, the 7 day trip served as a good reminder to be myself and celebrate the uniqueness of others around me. Inclusion is my favorite aspect of the Pride movement, but celebrating it on a dance floor is a very…
Chicago

I can’t help but get nostalgic when I come back to Chicago. Hard to believe it’s been 25 years since I left and went on to make San Francisco, New York City, and San Diego my home cities (name spelled backwards is nomad, so I felt it was my birthright to move around 😉). A…
Revelations of an Idolater

“And the woman was arrayed in purple and scarlet colur, and decked with gold and precious stones and pearls… And upon her forehead was a name written a mystery: Babylon The Great, the mother of harlots and abominations of the Earth.” A PRELUDE Despite her awards and credentials, I usually don’t think of Madonna as…
Gentleman’s Rhapsody

It’s been a long time since I recorded some new material. Leveraging of an excerpt from an essay I wrote last year, “The Haunting of Damon Wallace”, I recorded a new track “Gentleman’s Rhapsody”. It was fun stepping up to the mic again after 12 years, definitely got me itching to record more. I took…
Where the Wild Things Are

I returned this week from another amazing visit to Lac du Flambeau, WI. As the liaison between my company and the Lac du Flambeau (LDF) tribe, I’ve been going a couple times a year since 2018 to attend their tribal summits and seminars and have established strong bonds w/ some of the tribe members in…
Dear Alice

What a difference 12 years makes. Compared to when I started tinkering around with animation in 2010, I was able to accomplish on my phone in 2 days what would’ve taken me weeks on a computer back then. Using a track about escapism I recorded in 2010 that I had wanted to animate, I made…
The Gift of Independence

This post sums me up. I’ve often credited me mum and dad for gifting me freedom and independence (although me mum may question those decisions as of late 🤣). Add only child to the mix and I can assure you – this latch key kid has no problem being alone. Your rejection may hurt, but…
Got to Believe We are Magic

Before there was Madonna, there was Olivia Newton John where I was concerned. Given her death two days ago, I felt the need to pay some due respect to the lady lost. After all, Olivia Newton John came to embody my first secret, when at seven I realized I wanted to be the bad ass…
Monkey in the Sky

I had a rather ominous take on the sky last night, which is uncharacteristic for me. I noticed the crescent moon earlier in the evening when I was in the backyard but ignored it. It wasn’t until later in the night that I cared, when I was in bed falling asleep and threw open my…
Beyond the Cellar Doors

“Most English-speaking people will admit that cellar doors is ‘beautiful’, especially if dissociated from its sense (and from its spelling). More beautiful than, say, sky, and far more beautiful than beautiful. Well then, in Welsh for me cellar doors are extraordinarily frequent, and moving to the higher dimension, the words in which there is pleasure…
Believing in Magic

Why does an atheist own tarot cards? It’s the one question I most regret never asking my dad. After he passed away, his collection of tarot and oracle cards were my only ask. I’m more open minded than my father was, or at least more open to entertaining the mysteries of life aloud. While I…
The Opera Badge

Braveheart Badge #5 The Opera Badge” 🎼 Clear your throat, release your burdens, and face the crowd. Each of us are an Opera, a series of songs and defining acts that invoke the emotions of those around us. Set your tempo and choose your lyrics wisely; our music lives on long after we die. The…
The Flame Badge

Braveheart Badge #1 – “The Flame Badge” The Flame Badge 🔥 – Happiness is a choice, so long as you believe you’re worthy of it. The Flame badge is earned when you learn not to let others define your pathway to happiness. It comes with the recognition that the heart is the gateway to the…
The Shield Badge

Badge #2 – The Shield Badge 🛡 Don’t be bullied into love, lured into committing your heart to those who question its value and drain it of potential. The Shield badge is earned when you realize that while your love for another may be limitless the years in this lifetime are not. It comes with…
The Temperance Tear

Braveheart Badge #3 “The Temperance Tear”💧 Weather your storms with dignity. Don’t flinch at the lightening, flee the rain, or lash out at the thunder. Lean into your tempest and receive nature for what it is, a gift. The Temperance Tear is earned when you surrender to harmony and transform heartache into inspiration, the moment…
Quarantine Selfies

Someone I was in close contact with last week came down with COVID, so as a precaution I hunkered down this weekend and went into hermit mode, which always puts the neighbors on edge (they find my hooded robe, lantern, and chanting at the moon “creepy”). My self induced quarantine this weekend took me back…
The Unicorn King

This year I received my best birthday gift to date. As I was getting ready for bed on my birthday, me mum knocked on the guest room door and handed me a final gift for my birthday, the silver tankard I got my dad on his last birthday back in 2020, which has the Wallace…
Me, Myself, and Eye

To sum up the past year, I was never more alone than I was in 2021, and yet, I never felt more content. 2021 was the first year where I was accountable to no one – man or animal – except for the gentleman in the mirror, and I seized the moment, however taxing at…
Solar Eclipse

“If” I could astral project through space and time, at 11:44 PM PST last night you would’ve found me shivering in the heart of Antarctica – braving the winds from the north in my unicorn onesie, rainbow binoculars locked on the heavens – anticipating the union of the sun and moon. While most of us…
Tribute to Mum

I may be a day late to mark the official holiday, but as far as I’m concerned everyday should be Thanksgiving, especially where me mum is concerned. Next Tuesday marks 1 year since my dad passed away from COVID-19. While my mom has always inspired me, after watching her say goodbye to her husband of…
The Haunting of Damon Wallace

“The Haunting of Damon Wallace” – By Damon Wallace There is a legend about a song that travels in the air. It has circled Earth for generations and endured the most brutal storms and witnessed the rise of man. It was here before the Pyramids, Stonehenge, Machu Picchu and the might of the Terracotta Army.…
Saint Patrick’s Day ‘21

Happy St. Patrick’s Day, Beautiful People! 😘🍀 Although I never wrote about it at the time, it was a year ago today that I started getting sick with COVID-19 after going bowling the Friday prior in defiance of the impending lockdown (Friday the 13th, nonetheless!). Truth be told, I’m glad I had it when I…
Reflecting on 2020

Time to strip down and reflect on 2020, or as I like to refer to it, “The Great Humbling”. Outside of the loneliness of quarantine, 2020 was my first year living alone in over 2 decades, which would later become the year I lost my 14-year old dog (Bruno 🐶❤️) and, worst of all, the…